“I’m Not Okay”

“I’m Not Okay” is a song that I originally wrote for a short film in 2016. The director, and my college roommate at the time, Dylan Leslie, approached me about this movie concept he had: a reclusive, aging musician reminiscing on his past life as a rock star in the 60s group Canyon. And in order to legitimize the storytelling, this fictional, aging musician, needed a believable song.

I was brought on to the project to compose this original song and a score for the short. Inspired by the Beach Boys, I wrote, recorded, and produced “I’m Not Okay” as an homage to nostalgic, 60s surfer rock. I even got my older brother, Warren, to play his trumpet on the track to further evoke the era I was going for.

This film became a lovechild between me and Dylan: we ate, drank, and breathed Canyon. It was a phenomenal experience full of sleepless nights and collaborating. If you look close enough, you’ll see that I’m even in the picture.

Written and composed by: Sam Dennis
Performed by: Sam Dennis – guitars, piano, percussion, synths, vocals
Warren Dennis – trumpet, backing vocals
Produced by: Sam Dennis
Cover Design by: Sam Dennis
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED to SAM DENNIS.

Lyrics

i had a love so wonderful
the ocean waves know her name.
she’s the sweetest girl in california
and this side of the states.

i want her all to myself,
but she’s going a different way.
what can i tell myself?
i’m in love and i’m not okay.

i had a love so darling
the stars can paint her face.
her beauty shines brighter than any sun
and puts the dark nights to shame.

i want her all to myself,
but she’s going a different way.
what can i tell myself?
i’m in love and i’m not okay.